It is official. I am one of the world's biggest assholes. God knows what I was trying to prove.
And it was true what I said before, about respect and trust. I didn't want it to be. I wanted to love you just the way you were. But I'm not the only bad guy here, and what is worse is that you are in love with someone else.
I don't want to judge you; I don't want to judge myself. I still can't help feeling like I am this horrible, broken person. And nothing is worth feeling like this.
And I don't think I will ever trust you again. I don't know if I could ever love you the way I wanted to.
God knows I've never loved myself, either.
4:20 p.m. - Thursday, Dec. 22, 2005
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