I think I've mentioned it before, but I am horrible in relationships...
I don't know how to explain it. There's that wonderful puppy love stage, which sometimes I totally skip, and then the settling down stage, the first big fight, the make-up, and then what? What about when you become comfortable? What about when things are awkward? I have to actually talk about all of the things I am feeling? It's really that simple?
I seem to do better when there are constant problems that I feel I must fix (or die trying). Since Eric and I get along fairly fabulously, I am left wondering what to do. The first time I was in love, I started fights so that things would feel normal to me (if you knew how my father acted when know one else was around, you would understand). I've grown up a bit since then... But I still don't know what happens now. I guess I have time to myself, which is an altogether new and perhaps frightening. I don't handle my own afairs all that well...
Perhaps I should make a list of all the things I want to get done, or perhaps I should just start doing them. I am finally keeping track of things with an organizer, which is an entirely new and sdult thing for me. I suppose it's about time; I am almost 23. I just realized how young that is... (at least, it seems young to me).
So yes, there are a number of things I can think of just having to do with my car, like having the window and muffler repaired... And my room could be cleaned in a day (I think) if I would really put my mind to it. I think the first thing I will do is finish sorting through my clutter, and then I will decide on everything else.
Tomorrow I am going to an amusement park. I usually don't participate in this sort of thing, but a friend has free passes and went out of his way to invite me. I bought some new linen pants and a pink hat for the trip. I will have to remember sunscreen, of course, or I may die of skin cancer.
I suppose I should sleep, as I am being picked up at 9:30 for the amusement park trip...
12:06 a.m. - Friday, Apr. 30, 2004
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